I FIND LESS BEAUTY IN LIFE THAN DEATH.

woe, i actually got on today.

i havent been on in forever.

megan, cheianne, christine, or cassie, if you see this...

HI!

IM IN STUDY HALL RIGHT NOW. I MISS YOU GUYS.

oh megan, why werent you at school today?

<3

bye, ily.

woe, i actually got on today.

i havent been on in forever.

megan, cheianne, christine, or cassie, if you see this...

HI!

IM IN STUDY HALL RIGHT NOW. I MISS YOU GUYS.

oh megan, why werent you at school today?

<3

bye, ily.

MEGAN: you are without doubt one of the best things thats ever happened to me. you and your family are great. you always listen to my problems,whether its problems with jamie, or my mom is going psycho, youre always there. your fun to be around. and you always make me laugh. thank you for just being you. school has been great with you. i love you <3

CHRISTINE: you are definetely something. your very strange and say the most random things, but i love it cause you always
know how to make me laugh. hanging out with you and cheianne in study hall was great. thank you for being there for me,
and for just being a good friend. i love you <3
CHEIANNE: you are so amazing. your one of the weirdest people ive ever met, but thats what makes you so special, cause your just 
yourself, and your so unique, and i love it, cause you always cheer me up even when you  just talk. i love you, and thank you for being
such a good friend. <3
CASSIE: i know most people think of you as some weird, snobby girl. but if they got to know the real you, they would love you.
your amazing, and your family is great. i know our tastes in men, music, or even clothes are way different. but you are so fun 
to hang out with and i thank you for that. i love you <3ANI: ive known you for ten years, and youve seen me lower than i ever want to be seen, youve helped me and my sister through everything that weve gone through. and i cant thank you enough for that. your like a big sister to me. and you always look out for me. even though sometimes i wanna pull your hair out, i love you to death, and i cant imagine my life without you

<3YOU GUYS ARE THE REASON I HAVE HOPE. YOUVE HELPED ME THROUGH EVERYTHING. THANK YOU SOO MUCH. I LOVE YOU GUYS!! <3

OH and theres one girl, who USED to be my everything. but,,, we got in some dumb fight and she told me she hated me,  and that i was pathetic, and that i mean nothing to her... which hurt.. alot, because even though i want so badly to just hate her and forget about her, i cant... and i still love her and i still care about her.. but... i cant be there for her anymore... she was willing to let me go that easily,,, and i dont need that. its really hard, and i cant stop thinking about her, but i have to atleast try to let her go... for me....

Jamie: I love you more than you will ever be able to understand, but please.. stop calling, and stop trying to make any contact with me... i miss you more than ever, but... i just cant do it anymore...

goodbye <3

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Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.
Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife!

Look at me.
Can you tell,
by the way I move and do my hair?
Do you think that it's me,
Or its not me?
I don't even care.
I'm alive, I don't smell.
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry.
Dry.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Do I drink?
Do I date?
I've got perfect placements.
All my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes.
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now.
I made sure that I look how I wanted to look.
The people around me,
The people surround me.

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry.
Dry.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

My stomach hurts now,
And all tied off in lace.
I pray, beg, for anything to hit me in the face.
And this sickness isn't me.
I pray to fall from grace.
The last thing I see is feeling.

And I'm telling you I'm a fake,
I'm telling you I'm a fake. (x3)
I'm telling you I'm

Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.



Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Im a genuine fucking fake!

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He had a plan to kill you all along,
The evidence was hidden in this song,
I was a ghost,
I was there at the scene,
As the embers rise, my hands,
Smelled like gasoline,

So, the headlights murdered my thoughts,
I curse this taste that's on my tongue,
This taste will last until I rip it out,
No, I won't need these gloves,
Her bones are withered away, but your ghost will remain.

You're the only one that wore your seatbelt,
We're the only ones that cried,
Catastrophic accidents,
You're the only one that died.

So keep my casket closed,
Your heart beats under the floor,
It haunts me in my dreams,
And nothing's as it seems.

Hallelujah, whoa,
So just believe in me,
I'll never let you down,
This was a curse I can say,
As you lie in your grave

You're the only one that wore your seatbelt,
We're the only ones that cried,
Catastrophic accidents,
You're the only one that died.

So keep my casket closed,
Your heart beats under the floor,
It haunts me in my dreams,
And nothing's as it seems.

(But your ghost will remain, as you lie in your grave)
(But your ghost will remain, as you lie in your grave)

All the choices you've made
And the paths that I take
You're the only one that died
(The evidence was hidden in this song)

All the choices you've made
And the paths that I take
(We're the only ones that cried)
Irrelevant, I knew it all along

All the choices you've made
And the paths that I take
(It was never enough)
(It was never enough)
(It was never enough)
(Now was it?)

So keep my casket closed,
Your heart beats under the floor,
It haunts me in my dreams,
But nothing's as it seems,
So keep my casket closed,
Your heart beats under the floor,
It haunts me in my dreams,
But nothing's as it seems,

So keep my casket closed,
Your heart beats under the floor,
It haunts me in my dreams,
But nothing's as it seems,

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She lights a candle, but she doesn't know why.
She wants to save me, but i'm barely alive.
My soul is thirsty. I just wanna get high.
Make her go away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She won’t go away.

[Chorus]
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I won’t die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.

[Verse 2]
I dragged myself out of the bed that she made,
And I escape her in a black motorcade
She's pushing bibles and a clear bill of health.
I can't make her go away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She won’t go away.

[Chorus]
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.

[Electric Solo]

[Final Pre-Chorus and Chorus Combo]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me to-)

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If we cut out the bad
Well then we'd have nothing left
Like I cut up your mouth
The night I stuffed it all in
And you lied to the angels
Said I stabbed you to death
If we go at the same time
Now clean up the mess

I lost my head
You couldn't come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun

Watch you bite into the bottle
Watch me kick out the chair
Let you chew up the glass
And laughed as you just hung there
I had thought of rose petals most perfectly pure
Then I thought of your petals
And the abuse they've been through

I lost my head
You couldn't come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
You lost your head
I couldn't come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
Whoa whoa

I told the angels
Cant stay in heaven
I asked the devil
If we cut out the bad well then we'd have nothing left
Like I cut up your angels
Yeah you stabbed me to death

I lost my head
You couldn't come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
You lost your head
I couldn't come
This lust to my brain almost feels just like a gun


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Hurtful words,
From my enemies of the last five years,
What's it like to die alone?

How does it feel when tears freeze?
When you cry?
The blood in your veins is twenty below.

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window,
Make sure you're still alive,
Just in time to kill you,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

I can't take this (take) anymore
I can't take this (take) anymore
I can't take this (take) anymore
(I cannot feel what you've done to me)
I can't take this (take) anymore
(What you've done to me)

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window,
(Window)

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

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Oh my god, I have the remedy for love
I struck the glass and broke the bones inside my fist, but I'm ok

I cannot change you (I cannot change you)
You’ll never change (you'll never change)
I never would expect to break this in the end

Something so profound, something you won't expect
Take this scripture like a picture and wear it around your neck
The sky it opens up
Don’t get swallowed by the flames
What’s mine is yours and yours is mine so take me away

You hear the sounds, they're carried out
There’s no sympathy for the dead
It swells and I, was never the same
There’s no sympathy for the dead
We dance like zombies do in the middle of the rain
We see the stones falling from the sky (on fire)
The blinding light beaming from your eyes (our desire)
Life has died, yet we're still alive and down below
A sea of damned crashing like a tidal wave, wave

I cannot change you
You’ll never change (you'll never change)
I never would expect to break this in the end

I can't breathe
Wake up from this nightmare that I'm in
Dive into a holy river and wash away my sins
As I reach (sanctified) the surface of the water now
I will breathe and burn out my eyes

You hear the sounds, they're carried out
There’s no sympathy for the dead
It swells and I, was never the same
There’s no sympathy for the dead
We dance like zombies do in the middle of the rain
We see the stones falling from the sky (on fire)
The blinding light beaming from your eyes (our desire)
Life has died, yet we're still alive and down below
A sea of damned crashing like a tidal wave, wave

So take the medicines to quench the pain we have
And walk until the end, until you've reached the sand
A hundred thousand wings, soaring through the sky
At intense speeds, we can't catch with our eyes
You hear the sounds of a third carried out
Just wait (just wait)
You hesitate

I have the remedy to this poisonous kiss
I struck the glass, it shatters bones in my fist (you hesitate)
I have the remedy to this poisonous kiss
I struck the glass, it shatters bones in my fist (you hesitate)
I have the remedy to this poisonous kiss (There's no sympathy for the dead)
I struck the glass, it shatters bones in my fist (you hesitate)
I have the remedy to this poisonous kiss (There's no sympathy for the dead)
I struck the glass; it shatters bones in my fist

You hesitate

There's no sympathy for the dead
(You hesitate)
[X3]

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This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get it back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

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(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
I'll go ahead and pour myself a drink
I really couldn't care less what you think
Well I don't have to listen now
Live this day down
If I can't feel a thing
You might as well save your goodbyes
We can give this train wreck one last ride
I'm gonna have to listen now
Live this day down
If I don't make things right
I'll tell you one last time

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)

I woke up with a heartbeat in my head
I reached for the bottle by the bed
I saw your side was not slept in
Cold sheets again
Remind me of what you said
We need to take a break for a while
It's been so long since I smiled
I don't wanna listen now
Live this day down
With you so drunk and high
So I'll say goodbye

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't want to know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
Now I know I can't stay sober
Cause you left me here like this
I don't wanna know
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know


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